I want you more than I’ve ever wanted anything

more than I wanted a second breath after I took my first

Instant addiction—the kind that all those books are written about

with a before and after only visible looking back

all wrapped up in a single night that I should have held on to longer

and now I’m chasing smoke and shadows

looking for intoxication and terrified

because this time I may not be able to hold on

Missing out on the whole point of letting go

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